We have all been conned by government for decades, regardless of their political title, they are fraudsters, cheats, thieves and liars and yet we sit and take everything they throw at us without challenge of fight, like a nation of cowering fools. Time and again we just take it up the arse and I am only sorry that I, like you, did nothing about it and now, for me at least, it’s too late.
This is a difficult thing for me to write about but rather like all the elephants in the room, it does need to be addressed. If I can leave one thing, one thought, that will make just one person sit up and listen and make change then my time here was not a complete waste.
My whole working life has been about chasing recognition, acceptance, reward, and of course money to ensure that I am surrounded by all the material elements that feign security and admiration. Working hour after hour and pushing myself to the limit each and every day just to please the ‘CUSTOMER’ and to make sure that they can push me as hard as they like in order to squeeze my profit margins, arseholes!!!!!
The big house, the fast car, the expense account, the holidays, designer clothes, hand made suits, restaurants, all a pile of shit in the end and means nothing at all really. I can remember when my accountant said that I should now register my business as an LLP (Limited Liability Partnership) in order to protect my position on my own board. That kind of felt like recognition and it felt good. More recently I was awarded my second LLP (Limited Life Prognosis) from a very stern medical consultant and that did not feel good at all, though it was recognition of the hard work I had been doing so I guess it was just another award particularly as it is a result of industrial injury from work that I had been doing back in the 1970’s can you believe.
When I lost my business back in 2015 I thought my world had ended. I found nothing but closed doors that would not open how ever hard I knocked on them. The very people that once had been pleased to be seen in my company and paid for on my expense account, were suddenly and seemingly afraid to speak to me. Maybe they thought they would be infected with what I had, I don’t know. The problem is that we are all so scared because we feel the need to keep going, to keep earning, to keep paying tax and the only pinch we give ourselves each morning is the one when we arrive at our desk or at our first meeting of the day because in our stupid little hamster wheel world that is affirmation of our existence.
Well it’s all BOLLOCKS !! and if you are easily offended, I couldn’t give a shit, snowflake !! The last three years of my life have been my lowest, I have suffered ill health, that included a heart attack and a triple bypass, depression, a nervous breakdown among other things and now this bloody diagnosis that is going to end my life rather sooner than I had wished. I am processing it right now and trying my best to deal with shouting at God and asking ‘Why me, what did I do?’
What lessons can I pass on from all of this, well the first thing in life that remains a constant source of love and encouragement, how ever much you might have neglected them whilst crawling up the corporate ladder, is family. My family have been amazing and I only wish now I had spent more time with them than with the ARSEHOLES that I bribed to spend more money with me. My partner and my closest friends have been my rocks and I know that I can depend on this mix of people to support me through my darkest days.
Look, don’t get me wrong, I had some fun working in a fast paced industry, drinking wine, eating great food and doing the deal. I met some good people and I had some laughs but I could have done more of that with my family. I recently discovered real pleasure from spending time having a beer with my older brother sitting in the local and putting the world to rights and now, I am leaning on him for the inevitable practical support that I will need.
I am on the verge of having my house repossessed, my car will have to go and of course I have just started to see what benefits I can enjoy from the forty years of higher rate tax that I paid along with my National Insurance contributions. I made my first call to these pen pushing morons last week only to be advised that I should consider selling some of my possessions and taking in lodgers. So whilst you build your empire, earn your high salary and keep on throwing caution to the wind, maybe you should stash some cash because believe me you are going to need it some day and that day could come sooner than you think.
I only discovered last week that my life limiting condition was caused by working with certain industrial elements back in the mid 1970’s and although it had been dormant and might well have remained so for many years to come, it was activated by infections caught following open heart surgery, you could not make this shit up could you. “Mr James, we have now given you the heart of an 18 year old, however, your lungs are now fucked up”
I have cried myself to sleep a few times over the last few days, hardly surprising really, I only found out a couple of weeks ago and of course this is fast paced and affecting me more each day. I am dealing with the fear and the decisions that only I can make in the coming weeks or months, amazing that during my deepest depression I considered suicide and all that I want now is the chance to wake up from this nightmare and to live. So what can I leave with you, well, life is like a deck of cards, when one falls it seems the rest follow very quickly. Remember to secure your position now, prepare yourselves for the trickery of government and the failing National Health Service. Talk to your family and friends and make them aware of your wishes but more important than that, re-evaluate your life right now, spend time with people that you love and those that love you. Look at what you have, do you really need another display cabinet to show off your trophies, our trophies should be memories not pretty things to look at.
When I went from earning around £12,000 per month down to drawing on a small savings account of around £1,000 per month, I did not starve, I still had wine, I still had the people that really count with me, I still had a roof over my head and I laughed, don’t get so caught up in the drudgery of targets, self improvement for business or simply chasing the next invoice, believe me there is so much more to life than that.
I look at the people around me now and the happiest ones are those that have alleviated themselves of pressure and are simply enjoying the art of breathing, something that I now do with some difficulty. One other piece of advice, everything comes back to bite you in the bum at some point. I have seen people on awful looking oxygen machines, people that are suffering from the effects of smoking for example and yet they gave up 20 or 30 years ago, lesson learned, don’t start smoking. Do not turn yourselves into raging health fanatics but do take care because we are what we consume.
I will continue to pop up from time to time when I can in order to leave you with snippets and smiles. For now, please do understand that life really is too short, it is something to be valued and enjoyed. If you are doing something right now that you are not enjoying , then stop, the world will still keep turning and little will change other than your happiness and contentment. Do something now before it’s too late and make the changes that you have already been thinking and dreaming about. Stop wasting any more time.
Finally, if I do knock on your door in the coming weeks, I am not looking for a job, a handout, a loan, an opportunity, I might just be looking for a chat, a laugh, a moment to talk about possibilities so leave the latch off OK. I would also like to say a big ‘I COULD NO LONGER CARE IF I OFFEND ANYONE’ to one and all, you see, I really don’t care, if you don’t like me or what I have to say because, you can’t get me anymore, God has already done that.
You think your local council is not on the take or the fiddle, think again. Underhanded, greedy, power crazy, dictatorial idiots, total buffoons. We need to eradicate them and replace them all with sound minded individuals that have the rights of the people at the forefront of their minds.
How many times have you walked past a person that is begging in the street and taken no notice, how many times have you seen someone sleeping rough in a shop doorway or on a bench and not given them a second glance. The shameful thing for me is that I know I have done just that, countless times.
I can’t seem to be able to give this bloody house away so I will try again for the last time with a reduced price it’s really that simple. Boys Hall in Willesborough, Ashford, Kent. Final offer £1.65m no negotiation.
The stupidity of planning officers and local politicians, the greed of developers wanting more has left me with breeze blocks where there used to be sunshine.
I bet some of you have just googled that, but if you haven’t yet, you will soon get the idea.
I’ve finally done it, I am having withdrawal symptoms and it’s been less than twenty four hours but I’m sticking with it, I have to, for my own sanity. I’ve deleted my Facebook account!!
After three years that were both weird, scary and wonderful, I am finally back in data and a few other things as well. If you are interested please read on. I may be able to help you.
So it was just over three years ago that for various reasons I not only left Lloyd James Ltd behind me but I left the industry. After 36 years in the data driven marketing world I was ready for a change. What I had not expected was the trail of events that were waiting for me just around the corner.
Burglary, assault, freak accident, life threatening injuries, severe heart attack, open heart surgery to name a few of the things that helped shape my life and took me in every direction that I had not planned.
I am now fully recovered and ready to rock and roll so to speak and to that end was approached by a company a few months back that wanted me to advise and assist in their business growth to make them ready for sale. Ideal for me as they are based in both the UK and the city of Cebu in the Philippines my favourite place in all the world second to my Kent coastal home.
With figures agreed and flight tickets booked I was all set to go and of course excited at the prospect only to have them cancel on me a few days prior to departure. I decided to travel anyway as I needed a well earned break and so off I travelled. On my first night in a favourite restaurant/bar haunt of mine I got talking to a couple of interesting chaps and within 24 hours was drinking herbal tea (I kid you not) at the Cebu Country Club (check that gaff out on Google) discussing how I could help their growing business.
Sharing the same CEO as the SunStar Newspaper group in the Philippines this new BPO (Business Process Outsourcing) company is set to fly and very quickly, with the added benefit of being flexible enough to accommodate the strangest requests from new clients.
What they really want are UK customers and that is where I come in. One area that they excel in is building databases through clever market research, sponsored questionnaires and of course with my GDPR whip guiding them along the way (joking of course, about the whip I mean not the GDPR bit) they will be offering GDPR cleansing of existing databases. Add to this the new guidelines set out in PECR regarding PPI calling and the UK is becoming less attractive as an option for any form of inbound and outbound marketing. What we are all about is building data in line with your needs it’s really that simple.
They are already an established BPO centre offering all the usual HR, payroll, publishing, accounting, legal, web design, etc services and have over twenty years experience in providing business solutions so I am happy to speak to anyone about that or any other requirements what ever they may be.
If you want to talk data with me or simply want to find out about my adventures over the past three years I am providing my mobile number here 07854 067912 and the opportunity to meet up and discuss anything you might have a need for. Oh and if you do any business with us there is an opportunity to join me in Cebu and have a look at what we do and a coupe of trips to the bar I mentioned previously..
You know that sinking feeling you get when you lose something and think to yourself ‘I aint never getting that back’